Posted by Meri-Tuuli on March 8, 2007, at 11:47:35
In reply to Coaxil; it's working,.........yet................., posted by Quintal on March 8, 2007, at 10:54:29
Hey Q
Well I've missed you for a start! Anyway, your experiences are very interesting. I understand what you're saying. Thats very (very!) loosely comparable to the way I felt taking cipramil for one and a half years - and now why I'm remaining unmedicated. Although, I don't think 'normal' people feel this way. I think a awful lot of people hold down boring 9-5 jobs out of economic need. But that said, they don't seem to get depressed and when I speak to some of my friends in this position, they don't seem to be, well, I'm not too sure how to put it, but they don't let things get to them like I would. But then, I've realised that when you're actually not depressed, everything becomes a whole lot easier.
I tend to find I blame the outside world for my misery - and I tend to think that (for instance) I'll be less miserable once I've started my masters, moved away from the UK etc etc. Only then I discover that these external things don't help make me less miserable. Its all internal. Maybe its hope too. When you're miserable you tend to pin so much hope on things I'm sure 'normal' people don't. But then, these invariably let you down because they don't then make you any less miserable and I guess, you become more bitter and more miserable....
'Paradise is not someplace you go, its how you feel for a moment in your life'. I think that was a quote from The Beach and sort of sums it up for me.
I wish I were mentally more resilient.
Kind regards
Meri
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