Posted by halcyondaze on February 2, 2007, at 17:27:29
In reply to Re: Nine Days on Parnate! » halcyondaze, posted by Crazy Horse on February 2, 2007, at 17:14:08
It's always nice to hear that I'm not alone in my Parnate abuse. Oftentimes I feel stupid because I am abusing an antidepressant but I find it SO amphetamine-like that I want to keep that "speed" feeling going so I take more.
I used to lie to my doctor and say it wasn't working for my depression just so I could take more, so she was Rx'ing 120 mg/day. This time, I became very aware of how bad it would be for me if the drug stopped working for depression so I did not lie to her to get her to write for more pills per day.
Everything I've read on Parnate warns about how it may induce drug-seeking behaviors and dose escalations characteristic of addiction, especially in substance abusers but there are so many people who swear up and down that it is not euphoric for them that I often wonder if there is something seriously wrong with me.
I don't know if it's physically addicting - it causes withdrawal when stopping, like any antidepressant does, but this doesn't mean it's "addicting" - but I find it profoundly psychologically addicting, and sometimes feel like my Parnate/Halcion combo is really just a "lite" version of my previous methamphetamine/heroin cocktail. I'm off illegal drugs but I'm still behaving in the same way. :( (though, actually, I do not abuse the Halcion)
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