Posted by deniseuk190466 on December 1, 2006, at 13:16:45
I really don't know what to do anymore and the thought of just jumping off a cliff is becoming more and more appealing.
My NHS psychiatrist has pretty much abandoned me by his refusal to treat me anymore as an outpatient and the only other option was to go to a day care centre where they are very much focused on therapy, they won't even try me on another medication.
The mirtazapine I was taking on it's own wasn't helping, I was having big anxiety problems on it and I had some Seroxat left which I've been taking. I have been having to take 30mg instead of 40mg as I've almost ran out and not sure who I'm going to get to prescribe it for me. I've been having a lot of anxiety on this as well so not sure it's even going to work at all. It's the sort of anxiety that leaves you weak and listless at the end of the day. Fortnuately, I have Zyprexa and that helps tremendously with the anxiety but don't want to keep taking it.
From looking through my notes I had a response to Seroxat at 40mg after two years of trying a number of medications, the latter ones were Effexor which seemed to help with the anxiety but didn't do much for the depression, then lamictal which I was on for months on it's own and then Nardil which helped with the anxiety but not the depression (it was more of a relaxed/stoned type of depression).
I have tried to replicate by taking Nardil again and then switching to Seroxat in the hope that it would work again but no such luck.
I am really tired of all of this, I don't see therapy as helping me and I'm thinking maybe Effexor plus Seroxat combined would help. Or am I just fooling myself. Even if it would I don't have anyone that would prescribe it anymore.
I'm fantasising more and more about ending it. At least at the beginning of this year I was still looking for jobs, still keeping going but now I just feel like giving up altogether.
Anyone got any suggestions.
Denise
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