Posted by craiggetty on September 22, 2006, at 16:17:04
In reply to Re: Apathy and no motivation, but otherwise fine, posted by HelenInCalif on September 20, 2006, at 20:22:54
I can relate to what you're saying. It's a slippery slope. A month ago I felt fine except for low motivation. I'd re-read that same book, too. Now I'm feeling too disinterested to read at all. Lying on the couch all day is fine (though I know it's not).
My gameplan is to switch from dexedrine to adderrall, up my wellbutrin, and resume taking cymbalta which I *coincidentally* stopped taking a month ago. My new pdoc has suggested lithium, but I don't want to go there yet.
"Just when I thought I was done, they keep pulling me back in...."
> > I have periods where I just can't initiate (work, social contacts, etc) even though I feel OK emotionally. Normally I'm very self-motivated and independent, but at these times I feel totally inert. I can't get started on my own, but if someone else gets something started I can engage with it, contribute well and even enjoy it. I'm not blocked by fear or depression; this is different. I wouldn't say everything else is completely normal, but inertia is the main thing.
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> I could have written this myself. If I have a slight push, I'll do fine. If I'm working with someone else, I'll do fine. But when I have to initiate, nothing. So for example if the choice is between reading a book I've already read, or zipping down to the library to get an exciting new book, re-reading the old book seems like just as good of a thing. Even though all the rest of the time I'd prefer the new book.
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> In effect- as far as getting tasks done- it's like a depression. Except that all the usual symptoms of depression aren't there, and I've certainly gone through depression before. But if I can't get my work done- and I'm a consultant, so I have to initiate things- then that's bad.
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