Posted by Jost on August 11, 2006, at 12:00:40
In reply to Re: Bipolar? Self diagnosis..., posted by jealibeanz on August 10, 2006, at 23:16:23
> I'm not really sure a pdoc is an option. I've been only to one, the one my insurance would cover. He was horrible. Made me feel worthless, incompetetent, and completely to blame for any unhappiness in my life. He told me I was perfectly fine and refused to help with any type of medication whatsoever.
>---That pdoc must have been unusual. Maybe of an old school, where pdocs were more therapists than writers of prescriptions.
If you go to most pdocs now, they see their primary role as evaluating appropriate medications, and I can't imagine any uptodate and competent one who would refuse to give you any AD at all, if you told him what you've written here.
> So just my own doctor isn't OK? Do they at times treat tx resistent or bipolar patients? I do forget that others can't read my mind or know all my history without me telling them. He actually doesn't know I have recurrent episodes, which is significant. I just never thought to come out and say it because to me it's very apparent.Jealibeanz,
---You say you trust the GP and he's caring and respectful, but you also say you can't bring yourself to tell him that you're depressed.
If it's hard to say that to him in person, what about sending an email, or, if not email, writing a short letter explaining your experiences, recurrent depressions, and current emotional state.
You've also said you're on good terms with other professionals in his office-- nurse, assistants, etc. Is there one of them whom you feel particularly trusting of? Maybe you could tell him/her and ask that they relay the information to the GP for you. (Or write an email, or letter, to him/her.)
Maybe if you turn it around, you'll feel a little better:
What if someone came to you, as a professional, with the problems that you've described: Wouldn't you want to help? You would be respectful and helpful.
Contrary to your expectations, that might be exactly how your GP, and others in his office will react.
Maybe take a couple of messages from this board, and send those, if you can't face writing the letter/email. Sometimes I put off writing hard emails, or letters-- but you've described how you feel very well, here.
Maybe time to take the next step in being able to do what you want in life. Step out of the self-analytic, self-questioning feedback loop that we all get stuck in, in a half self-protective,/half self-defeating way-- at times.
Jost
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