Posted by Maxime on July 10, 2006, at 11:26:30
In reply to Re: Lost for words, posted by bassman on July 10, 2006, at 6:05:38
No, I am not doing my Ph.D. right now. I WANT to do it, but I know that now is not the time ... for many reasons.
Can one have a depression for years and then it just goes away?
I am to blame for part of my depression. I feel so guilty for complaining when part of it is my fault. I don't eat enough because of my eating disorder and I know that doesn't help a depressed brain. So it's MY fault. It's probably why many meds don't work either.
"Just shut up Maxime and jump off a building". That's what I am telling myself these days.
Nothing is right and everything is wrong.
Maxime
> Hey, if you are working on your Ph.D. and it doesn't feel like a distant dream and you aren't crying, there is something really seriously wrong! :>) "The last true form of slavery", as we used to refer to it in grad school.
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> Maxine, I feel greatly for you, as obviously do many others on the board that know you more than from just your recent posts. I had a very similar period of depression (let me correct myself: no one knows how another person is suffering-all I can tell you is that I spent a lot of my day crying and so weak that I couldn't do anything-plus, of course, absolutely sleepless nights-and sure it would never end). The strangest thing happened: one day, it did end. No meds. It just ended. Amazing.
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> I know. I know. Right now, any positive story sounds like b*llshit. That's just where you are right now. That's O.K.
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> Please, please try to think of this like having the flu-you feel awful right now, but you will feel better in the future. Do ANYTHING you have to do to make life tolerable right now until you feel better-as you said-it's time to take care of you-and that's not selfish, right now, that's realistic. Hang in there...and stay in touch. I wanna read your thesis! :>}
> bassman
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