Posted by Maxime on July 9, 2006, at 21:32:39
In reply to Re: Lost for words » Maxime, posted by Racer on July 7, 2006, at 1:54:53
Good question. It would take a lot for me to feel better. I would need to feel "lighter" (and I am not talking about my weight). I would regain some of the cognitive ability I have lost ... I am slower now. I would be able to handle social situations whereas now I just find the bathroom and I cry. I would handle stress better ... less crying. Yes, the crying is getting in the way of any form of normality. Instead of looking at buildings to jump off, I would admire them for their architecture. I would be able to handle doing my PhD which now just seems like a distant dream. I would smile. My face would show emotion.
These are just SOME of the changes I would need to see to feel happy ... or at least hopeful. Right now I have no hope and wish for death.
Maxime
> Hey, Maxie. I'm sorry things seem so bleak to you right now. Does it help to know that I heard the same thing -- AND IT WASN'T TRUE??? I know you like your doctor, which is great, but you know what? That doesn't mean he's thought of everything.
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> I have to ask you, though -- what would it take for you to feel better? If it was a change in your life, what change would it be? If it was a drug, what would the drug do? What symptoms would go away to make your life bearable? Positively pleasurable? What would "feeling better" look like for you? What can we offer here -- besides our support and affection -- that might help you?
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> Take good care of yourself, and don't forget you maybe could email someone you know... ;-)
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