Posted by heaven help me on May 26, 2006, at 23:52:31
In reply to the dangers of hypomania?, posted by tessellated on May 26, 2006, at 21:35:54
ok, It's nearly 1am and I am still awake (though I am VERY tired and should be in bed) But I still have some mental energy, just physically spent.
It was another FULL day during most of which I really felt great and was handling things with great proficiency and calm. About 4 pm I started to feel a bit jittery, I took some Magnesium phosphate and that held me over until about 7:30 pm when I felt really jittery, my mind was sort of shaking, I still felt very emotionally up, I was having company, I was only worried about maybe freaking out all of a sudden so I took a valium. It was all I needed to stay in the happy state but not cross over into the sped up state.
It is almost as though as the day wears on things very gradually speed up for me and I start to worry things like "if this keeps speeding up I am going to be in trouble" (and I think I mean that I am going to start convulsing or something with a feeling of being so overcaffeinated that I burst (having only had ONE cup of coffee at 8am and NO other caffeine in the day). That has never happened but I start to feel like I might get there. Over stimulated, over stressed or something but all the while feeling emotionally GREAT.
Sooooo, is a valium in the eve just the answer as it got me through quite nicely today?
Or, am I on a high speed train headed for a crash and right now I just like the wind in my face but I BETTER BRACE myself?
or, am I fine?
or, do I need to adjust the Lamictal and/or the Geodon (forgot to call the Dr today on that-was too busy:) )
I go to Spain with my husband for a week mid June and I DO NOT want to mess anything up before or during then or I can't go!!!! So do I just ride on until I get back or I am I really in danger of explosion, implosion , meltdown or otherwise?????
I think when I get back I can adjust the doses a bit and see what happens.
I'm sorry this is so long, thank you all for listening and thank you for your responses. You're a great group
blessings
Mary
poster:heaven help me
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