Posted by heaven help me on May 25, 2006, at 21:57:26
Hi. Ok, I think I may be experiencing mania. I don't think I really have before, it was more like I was a line that dipped down now and then, but never up, up, UP. I was diagnosed BP 2 and am on nightly:
Lamictal 200mg (for 1 yr. now)
Geodon 120mg (for 8 weeks now)
RestorilAs time goes on I feel better and better every day. (evry night, however I am so overstimluated that I get jitterly, nervy, anxious etc.)
But the days are great! The last few days it has just gotten better and better to the point that today I was really HAPPY (not my normal state), through the day I think VERY clearly, VERY efficiently and VERY much. I have ideas coming faster than I can handle and they are all very , very good ideas.Here's a day: Yesterday I went to the gym (felt great after that), came home and weeded the flower beds, showered, took my youngest to my next child's field trip which included a 45' walk up and down sand dunes, skipped lunch because I wasn't hungry, went to the local crisis pregnancy center where I taught a class on make your own baby food, went home and made dinner for the children and deep cleaned the master bedroom, then went out to dinner with my husband and a couple where I designed an entire advertising campaign for them for an outreach they are doing in July. By then, I was tired, but wired. It was like sensory overload. Emotionally I still felt great, but I was ready for bed and to it I went, and slept well (on the meds).
Today I got up, did the laundry (even ironing which I HATE), took a shower, went of to see my Dr. who said things are going fine, just take 1 valium later in the day, picked up some children at school, went home to the rest of the children, cleaned up the main floor, talked to my sister for an hour and a half and "dealt" with some MAJOR life issues with her, made dinner and ate it with my family, took my eldest out to the store to shop for bday gifts, went on to another store to buy ALL the stuff she needs for an upcoming mission trip, went out for ice cream with her, picked up meds at the pharmacy and came home.
As the day went on this feeling of hyperactivity increased, but I felt GOOD. It felt good! Almost like I just wonder if I have been not good for so long that being good is a shock to my system that I need to learn to get used to. Or, IS IT MANIA????? Are these drugs I am taking inducing mania and do I need to watch out? And for what? Or am I just feeling well and can enjoy it? I am NOT spending crazy or unnecessary money, I am NOT having grandious thoughts (though when I saw how much laudry I got done I did feel temporarily "on top of the world"), I don't think I can "do it all" but I sure feel like I have been. I am just so afraid I am going to crash. Or is this how a *normal* (sorry) person feels. Do the meds I'm on induce mania? I was never BP1 but do these meds make a BP2 person become manic? Finally, at the store tonight I took a valium. Things have calmed down now. Is that just the answer? Take a valium in the evening and enjoy the day? Please, I need some reassurance here. Sorry for such a long post,TIA
blessings
mary
poster:heaven help me
thread:648642
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