Posted by Bonnie_CA on May 15, 2006, at 22:08:26
In reply to trigger: fantasy vs. action continuum, posted by llrrrpp on May 15, 2006, at 17:43:27
I know exactly what you mean! I haven't done anything like walking across a street without looking in awhile, but I sometimes think "Wow, it'd be great if I just laid down to sleep, and I didn't wake up because my heart stopped." I did that whole not taking care of myself thing back when I was 15. I'd not wear my seatbelt in the car. One time, I had a friend of mine ride with me when I had to go somewhere so I wouldn't be tempted to swerve into oncoming traffic. I don't want death to hurt, I want it to be quick and painless. But I wouldn't do it to myself. And I don't want to die everyday. Sometimes I'm perfectly happy with being alive, and sometimes I want someone to put me out of my misery. On a bright note, I don't think about death nearly as often as I did in high school. It's fractional now compared to those years. I would have gladly died back then. Now I feel like I have more to live for. - Bonnie
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