Posted by zarathustra on April 25, 2006, at 13:37:17
I dont know what is going on. I believe I have always suffered from deppression, and have had varying responses from medication, however something is new and is becoming progressively worse.
About a year ago I developed this fear of elevators after being stuck in a very small one for some time. The fear grew worse and I no longer can get into an elevator, I ALWAYS take the stairs.
Now, I am starting to have problems taking the subway (I live in Toronto) I start to feel sort of "trapped", like the tunnell is going to cave in...a few times i have started to almost hyperventilate and freak out, but managed to hold it together until i could get off at the next stop.
Yesterday, I think I had a panick attack when out walking on the street. It kind of came out of nowhere, very hard to describe...kind of like an overwhelming fear of.....everything. Like I was going to die or stop breathing or....its so hard to explain. I justwanted to run and escape but couldnt. It was absolutely terrifying, and now, everytime I think about it, it kind of triggers it a little bit. I am worried I am going crazy, or developing agoraphobia or something worse.
I dont want to seek help because I am afraid they will lock me up and that will trigger a claustrophobia attack. I dont know what to do, and I am very scared. Will this just go away? Will it get worse? Is it related to years and years of depression and overworking myself? I am almost contemplating suicide as a way to stop the lingering fear.PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME
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