Posted by SandyWeb on April 12, 2006, at 22:46:47
In reply to Re: Bye Bye, Topamax, posted by challenged on April 12, 2006, at 21:41:39
Kat and Nettie,
No need to worry,
I just survived a battle a couple weeks ago that should have been the end of me.....and it was the HARDEST thing to live through.....BUT I MADE IT....and I'm still here. You know how too many bad things happen too close together and you just can't deal anymore. Well, I did. I really don't know how.....BUT I DID.
So I'm here. This isn't a battle this time. This is just going to be the flu. I know there's an end in sight to it. The meds will run their course, I'll be freaking because I'm out of anti-anxiety meds, BUT I'm just going to sleep my way through it. I already fought my battle a couple of weeks ago......I'm not doing that again. I'll stay in my jamies for 2 weeks if need be. I'll soak in the tub. I'll let my daughter think she has the laziest mum on the planet. If my mind is going to be musch, I might as well sleep through as much of it as I can. Hey, I'm just a welfare-mummy. Got nothing to do anyways.
But I think the Remeron is going to be TOUGH! I'll drop from 45 to 15 tomorrow night, and if I feel the slightest twinge of those dang overwhelming hunger pangs, it's cold-turkey for that as well, just like that. Might as well two at once, huh? Hopefully my daughter will just think I have the flu. Then she goes back to her gandparents on the 17th, and once again, it's just the cats and myself since my 17-year old son moved out last month to live with his girlfriend. I was stuck in the dang apartment from March 20th to April 4th because I didn't have any Klonopin and no safe person (my son) to get outside with. Glad I had food in the cupboards. Stupid brain! Just, let's get this thing started....and then I can feel relatively normal again!
And don't worry......no roller coaster ride. I'm not taking anyone for a ride this time. So don't anybody get all panicky. It's not 2 years ago. I'm not suicidal. I just thought the paperwork would be processed by now. Instead, I owe my sister a chunk of money for the prescriptions she paid for me....thinking she would be reimbursed.
Good night.
Sandy
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