Slipping down badly

Posted by Ilene on October 5, 2005, at 23:16:55

I'm in the middle of a relapse that occurred out of the blue. I don't want to experience any more pain. I've already experienced a lot of misery and I just want out. Both my therapist and my pdoc have tried to talk me into going into the hospital, but I don't see how it would help me. I've been in two different hospitals before. At the first one they changed my meds around and released me. At the second one they gave me ECT, which I feel has left cognitive damage, and released me. I was in a partial hospitalization program for a few months. I started CBT a few weeks ago. I don't even remember all the different meds I've taken. The hospital might be an escape, but only temporarily. The only reason I'm staying alive is I don't want to hurt my family.
I just wanted to vent. I feel awful.
I.

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Slipping down badly Ilene 10/5/05
Re: yes, do not hurt your family UgottaHaveHope 10/6/05
Re: I hate mental illness lynn970 10/6/05
Re: I hate mental illness » lynn970 Phillipa 10/6/05
Re: Slipping down badly rjlockhart98 10/6/05
Re: Slipping down badly » rjlockhart98 Ilene 10/6/05
Re: Slipping down badly » Ilene 4wd 10/6/05
(((Ilene)))) » Ilene gardenergirl 10/6/05
Thank you all for your kind thoughts (nm) Ilene 10/6/05

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