Posted by rjlockhart98 on October 3, 2005, at 18:57:21
Before I have gone through HELL with my mind in thinking I am crazy, dissociation, panic.
If anyone has ever been so alert but afraid, i dont know what to do. Its like im addicted to it, through past experiences.
My eyes dialate, the sound of silence comes, breathing increases, and high vigelince.
I have smoked ciggarettes, and now im worried that it is going to clog my breathing, I am urged to stop.
I have been through these emergency modes in school, and they still are here.
I pray, pray. But in a way i feel safe when im this alert, im ready for anything. Its a sense of control but it controls me.
I dont know what really else to put.
WHat do you think of this?
poster:rjlockhart98
thread:562440
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20051003/msgs/562440.html