Posted by AMD on August 17, 2005, at 17:07:59
In reply to Re: I am miserable!, posted by Declan on August 17, 2005, at 16:08:37
I need to keep a positive attitude, like you, rather than sulk around worrying about if/when I did anything. I certainly wasn't up for days -- which makes me suspect I didn't get any of that stuff into my system. Cocaine crash, yes. Meth, probably not. Just can't stop obsessing that I may have done it, and who knows what damage that comes along with it.
Bottom line is ... how does one night of meth compare to several months of regular cocaine use? More toxic? Less? My hunch is that one night of meth messes you up more than any amount of cocaine could, and I'm sitting here thinking, "well, I MUST have done some the other night, and because I'm screwed up now, what does anything matter any longer?"
Tell me there's hope of recovery and that I won't be walking around depressed for years. :-(
Thank you for putting up with my obsessions month after month after month.
amd
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