Posted by Camille Dumont on July 1, 2005, at 15:08:40
In reply to My Visit to Mental Ward...., posted by rjlockhart98 on June 28, 2005, at 21:28:14
I know how it feels, the first time you have to set foot in a psychiatric ward. I remember when I had to go to an evaluation (it was that or be put on a 72h hold), just telling the cab driver to go to hospital x was horrible because everybody knows its the psychiatric hospital.
And then the forms where you consent to be treated and so on, feels like you're signing your life away ... and the doors, the fricking doors everywhere, even the offices have two doors with the doctor sitting with its back to a door and you comming in through the other. I could not help but think that this was his "escape route" in case I lost it.
During the whole interview my heartrate must have been through the roof I was so nervous. I was sooooo glad to get out ... but even on the way out, I remember a person got into my face and started to talk to me in some gibberish language I could not understand. It felt so ackward and out of this world.
Though I don't think there is such a thing as "real crazy" and "not crazy" people. I think they are people, just like us and if you take the time to try and understand them you find that they are just the same as you with needs, wants, interest and so on. I felt the same way about street kids and beggars and stuff but I got to spend a day with my sister helping at a place where they go to get a good night sleep and food and you know what, these kids were among the most intelligent and interesting people I have met.
But its probably a good thing that the doctor referred you to another one and they can treat whatever you have appropriately.
Sorry about your mom, I find that people get really strange then mental health comes in the picture. Some with deny it, minimize it or outright say that you lie. I think perhaps they think that if their kid has some mental illness then it must be something that they have done wrong. Thus any mental condition is like an threat to their parental adequacy.
Stay strong and take care.
> I went to Methodist Treatment Center, it looked like a very sophistacted facitlity, but when i walked there was people sitting with there arms crooked with a squiry smile at me..... i just grined and tried to get out of sight. I belive they where a little out of reality.
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> I was psychiatricly evaluatuted by a State Certified Counseler of Texas, i was very relived that she told me 4 times that i was not insane, i have NONE symptoms.... of Schizophrenia. But symptoms of severe anxiety.... i hate that awnser. It is more than anxiety.
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> My mom butted in, and threatend me if i didnt let her in the room. I consented to her. The first things she did was, Well this is WHAT IS GOING..... she flat out told her hush, this is not your evaluation, my mom gritted her teeth.... and said 'bitch' under her breath very lightly. She just ignored her....
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> i got to really let out my symtoms, i told her do i have symptoms of Schizophrenia, she told me. She did say that i have symptoms of hypo-mania, and she referred me to another psychiatrist.
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> It was a good visit, i thought they where going to lock me up. My mom really has a personality disorder i do not know of, she was told to be quiet during the session, because she would roll her eyes and say i was 'exaggerating', the evaluater rolled her eyes numerous times and told her this is not your evaluation. she boldy replied 'miss get to the point, i have to go and your wasting time'. She was asked to leave and sit in the lobby. Anger Problems....severe
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> Anyway. I dont think im Bi poler, just extreme at times.
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> I just am glad i am not insane. and was not going to have to be a 'inpatient' person, with real crazy people, lord they scared me.
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> See you later guys.
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> matt
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