Posted by TamaraJ on June 1, 2005, at 20:40:24
In reply to What is wrong with my brain??, posted by Spriggy on June 1, 2005, at 20:29:10
Hi Spriggy,
Yes! Yes! Yes! I know what you are talking about. I have felt the same way, and it ticks me off LOL. As I start to feel better, I think of how bad I have felt in the past while, and I get into this funk of fear and insecurity and a bit of despondency. It's like I know it's possible to get better, but the "what if" monster has taken up residence in my head sabatoging or highjacking my recovery. I am trying to figure out how to deal with it and get over it myself. I am thinking I may go a bit of therapy to see if I can develop some good techniques.
I hope we can both find a way to put the "what if" monster out of its misery LOL.
You take care. As always, my thoughts are with you.
Tamara
> This is so strange. I'm not depressed, I haven't been in many months.
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> I feel "almost" normal again until I remember how I "used" to feel and I almost freak my mind out so much that I can almost create those same feelings.
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> it's hard to describe. If I could just "forget" about those horrible 3-4 months of misery I was in mentally, I think I'd be fine. But it's the memory of it that is almost causing me to "go back there."
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> Does anyone have a clue what I'm trying to say??
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> I feel like my brain is either in a brain fog or on high alert, but i can't find that medium again.
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> Blah, blah, blah..
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> Somebody make sense of what I'm attempting to say. LOL
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