Posted by ace on March 21, 2005, at 21:46:51
In reply to I can't hold out much longer, posted by Maxime on March 17, 2005, at 19:41:30
> I'm waiting. Waiting to hear something about the DBS study. I am sick. So bloody sick. I can barely get up during the day. I am in bed most of the time. I dissociate and I like it that way.
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> No one cares. There is no point in going to the hospital because they won't keep me unless I need a med change. I am so scared that I am going to get tricked into having ECT. When you feel so low and someone hangs a carrot in front of you, it's so tempting to go for it even if it's rotten inside.
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> I want to kill myself but I am so apathetic I wouldn't be able to carry it out.
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> I know no one said that life would be fair ... but this isn't fair.
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> Maxime
I'm really sorry to hear you feel this way -- rest assured, I will think and pray for you. With life, you never know what's around the corner....but when you are depressed this advice doesn't help. Really, no advice helps, EXCEPT---....ENDURE....never say die.....just ENDURE and slowly (VERY slowly take steps towards recovery.....). Get on a med...I recommend Nardil, Remeron, Anafarnil, Prozac, and TRAMADOL (for quick relief off symptoms -- have a high dose 200-250mg)Endure, brave trooper,
Ace
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