Posted by jasmineneroli on March 19, 2005, at 20:24:45
In reply to Re: Need help with Diagnosis..., posted by SLS on March 18, 2005, at 5:58:40
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> I agree with Kara.
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> You might have a sort of bipolar disorder. What I would like to know is how often you "cycle"?Hello Scott, nice to talk to you again!
Well, it's kind of hard to say how often I cycle.
First, I would call it more of an "energy" cycle, than a mood cycle. I get progessively more cheerful and energetic throughout the day. Often in response to what is happening during that time.
I ALWAYS start the day physically slow and drowsy, OCD, grumpy and irritable which wears off mid-morning. Recently (past month), each of those symptoms have notched up to the VERY level! (ie: VERY slow, VERY OCD etc.). This is what my Pdoc, is calling early depression.
Also I get "driven" urges on a sporadic basis, but it does seem to be in response to stress. I don't think there's a pattern to it as far as timing is concerned. But it is several times per month at least.
However, there is also a seasonal aspect, which includes mood. EVERY March for the past 4 years, I get more depression, more insomnia, more rage attack type anxiety, more emotional lability, and do what might be considered "unusual" or "rash" things.This year my "rash" thing was to get my long mousy blonde hair chopped off short and dyed platinum blonde!!!! (Had long hair for several years). Just on a whim! Last year (exact same week, I now realize) I left my workplace in tears, without a word to anyone, because I was really anxious about an arrangement of keys hanging on a board. I decided it was a very "insecure" system, and once that was decided, I had to do something about it. I thought it would be better to move them some where else and put up pictures instead. I had an argument about it, drove off, drove to the town 30kms away, where my husbands' workplace is, walked in and demanded to know where the "old" calendars were, because I wanted to frame some of the pictures!! He was nonplussed! What was I doing there and not at work? Why didn't I just phone and ask him, instead of driving in? Obviously strange behaviour, but it seemed normal to me at the time. This is very out of character for me, otherwise. My pdoc blamed that on "hormonal" surges. That is definitely a factor. So it's very confusing.
4 years ago, I was feeling very suicidal, had stress leave, and decided I really needed " to get away from this place", so I booked a hotel in a city 400kms away, and told my husband that night that I was going away for 3 days, starting the next day. And I did. Whilst I was away, I dyed my hair in multi-colour streaks in my hotel room!! What's this hair thing all about???
> Although Neurontin has lost favor with psychiatrists, it might be interesting to give it a quick trial. It can help quite a bit with anxiety and might yet demonstrate some mood stabilizing properties in a select group of people.
My Dr. did consider Neurontin, about 20 months ago, but felt it wasn't a strong enough anxiolytic. He wasn't considering mood stabilization.Funny thing is Scott, about a year ago I had a dream (now you will really think I'm nuts!!). In it I went to this huge old building (like a Victorian era train station). Inside were many tables set up with men in spectacles sitting behind them, and people lining up at them. I went to one, and was given a little tin. On the tin was a word. Inside were tablets!!! The next morning I tried to visualize the word and it seemed to be "Trileptical".
I'd never heard of such a drug! So I did a web search and the nearest drug name was Trileptal! I had no idea what it was used for (at least consciously),
until I researched and found that it was an anti-seizure drug, often used as an anxiolytic.
Then I read all about Temporal Lobe Epilepsy. At my next appointment, I raised my dream and TLE, and Trileptal, but my doc said "no".Ha! Maybe I should try again????
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> - ScottThanks a lot for your interest Scott. What do you think?
Best wishes, Jas>
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