Posted by headachequeen on March 16, 2005, at 11:00:29
In reply to Re: statis epilepticus, posted by proserpine on March 15, 2005, at 22:48:17
> you have got to be the strongest person i have ever talked to, i think.
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> as wild as i sound, often it's -me-, but i have broken down lately, & i am not as strong as you. before my mother died it was my mother, who ran the psychiatric services for a wing in the adolescent ward at rancho los amigos hospital in the 60s (this would be for kids that were unable to leave the hospital. i have some stuff they made my mom)--
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> at any rate.
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> i am duly impressed, &, once again, -grateful-.
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> there is a red parrot to my right that will not be quiet, so i, myself, am at more of a loss for words than i normally am. it is exasperating, b/c i am more grateful for this post, in a way than even for the other, which has given me the ability to write both of these, by calming my med dose down to a reasonable level.
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> it's the fact that you still have some sort of strength coming thru loud & clear despite the weaknesses, a quality which my mother had, my grandfather had (both of these people worked like beasts & so did i, before they died, after too. they were also both constantly ill, me=ibid) & i have seem to have lost & must regain. i find some real help thru yr message & i thank you & wish you the very best. i know cellulitis is hell. i cannot remember who i know that had it. one of the above, probably. not me. i did have shingles, which led to the tn-- which has abated, largely, until i o.d.'d on the topomax (laughing)-- mea culpa, mea culpa--
You may not know the strengths you have...
take inventory...
personally, I think, having read your previous posts, we have much in common...
definitely in the book category...
I too have at least 4000 books and I have two books that are supposed to be finished and sitting in the publishers' offices ready to be reread by the people who do this art to be sent back for rewrites and so on...
so what do I do? I start a series, no, not a book, but a SERIES of children's books... books about how it is all right to be one's self... how one does not have to follow the herd or the pack or the gaggle but to be one's SELF...
except a series needs book one... and I have two, five, seven and I forget what other numbers done and number one refuses to write itself...
and now, following my declaration of freedom, or declaration of war, whichever, I am about to start to work on a magazine, from scratch, about something about which I know nothing.... so there go the books pushed back into the background again LOL...
and thinking about opening a photo studio of sorts called Outside the Box....
and back to the antique shop again for the summer...
and that is taking it easy...
see??? you can control the thought, but I would rest easier if you would back up to TWENTY-FIVE mg of topomax for a couple of weeks then work up to fifty and then to seventy-five and then to 100...
believe me, you will feel and react better...
sign me 600 mg a day...
kat and by the way, being eccentric is wonderful...
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