Posted by mmcconathy on March 6, 2005, at 13:57:09
and look what has happned.
I never have it together, and i screw up, and rejected, i see adderall, something to help me, and get it away, but now i have a label "trash"
I have a program in my mind, to go over "just take one more", god, i have destroyed myself.
I have made a point that i will take control, and stop! just as i stoped adderall. I have not ever gone to a re-hab center, and i will never let my self get to that point.
My emotion center is unbalanced, i feel disturbed, putting all my problems to the drug, to make it go away for a while, then just a little more. I have enoght of this primitive instinct, i am a complete wreck.
I am going to stop, this is going to wreck me hard, but but misery comes first before stableness comes.
I dont have a narcotic-seeking personality, i soon need to start Thorazine to maybe help, not many abusers take non addictive medications.
Guys, i just asked for your help, positive, negitive, i dont care. I have really hit the bottem hard.
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