Posted by Ritch on February 22, 2005, at 23:30:29
In reply to Unable to relate to family members?, posted by alienatari on February 22, 2005, at 4:03:07
> Enyone else feel as though, even though their family cares, they just dont "get it" in regard to their mental illness?
>Sometimes I think they pretend that they don't "get it" because many of them sometimes "have it" themselves or are very aware of other family members' problems that sound just like yours and it worries them.
> My Mother in regard to my Bipolar disorder said to me that "your Father is right, you try and terrify me all the time on purpose". Its as if to say she feels as though I have "chosen" to be bipolar. I dont chose to get depressed or manic. God, who would?!
I think that she is very worried about you and is somewhat scared. That's how she is reacting to you bringing it up. I never talked about it much to my parents. They were quick to encourage me to make an appointment to see my therapist or pdoc if there was a fight.. If you don't bring it up to them.. your behavior will have them bringing it up to you.. if it needs to be highlighted.>
> She also thinks I should not try another antidepressant, even though Im depressed and suicidal, saying that i am "ok" and that im "not depressed". How would she know? arghh ok im ranting lol. Sorry.Meds are in the spotlight politically nowadays. There are legitimate concerns about certain meds making things worse for bipolar. There are definite negative reactions I get to certain antidepressants / dosages. But, bipolar depression still needs to be treated. It is just very easy to make things worse if you aren't careful. Your Mom might just be getting a general anti-med mentality that may be partly based on some negative responses you have had to some unlucky med choices.
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> I do have a question though. As I am coming off parnate now (under psych advice) because I couldnt handle the side effects, I dont know what else is left? I have tried most antidepressants with little or no result. I dont know what to do. I refuse to take Nardil, I really dont want to be on another MAOI. I think the risk of stroke is just too much of a worry for me. When I was younger and was anorexic I had some kind of stroke/episode (it never really got explained) where I lost my ability to talk for a while and that was pretty scary I dont want anything like that to ever happen again, or for something worse to happen. My psychatrist wont perscribe lamictal. He wont perscribe Ritalin or anything else like that (he says i dont have ADHD so he wont perscribe it(but i dont think id take it anyway because again I am scared of medication that can potentially increase blood pressure). It doesnt make sence to me. He will give little kids ritalin and amphetamines but not me, even though Im an adult? Go figure. I was thinking maybe tegretol? I have read that it has some anti-depressant effects but again I dont know.
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> Ive just been on so many drugs im really sick of it all. Ive probably been on close to 35 different medications in total for my mental problems in the last few years. Its crazy. But i know a lot of you on this group are in the same boat as me. Anyway thanks for reading and take care.If you haven't taken Tegretol, and you have bipolar and have been on a lot of other meds without much success, I would say go for it. I'm feeling fairly stable now, but if things get wacky again, I think that Teg would be the first thing I would ask about it. I have tried Trileptal, (twice), and I can't tolerate it, but something tells me that the two meds are just as different as they are alike..
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