Posted by alienatari on February 22, 2005, at 4:03:07
Enyone else feel as though, even though their family cares, they just dont "get it" in regard to their mental illness?
My Mother in regard to my Bipolar disorder said to me that "your Father is right, you try and terrify me all the time on purpose". Its as if to say she feels as though I have "chosen" to be bipolar. I dont chose to get depressed or manic. God, who would?!
She also thinks I should not try another antidepressant, even though Im depressed and suicidal, saying that i am "ok" and that im "not depressed". How would she know? arghh ok im ranting lol. Sorry.
I do have a question though. As I am coming off parnate now (under psych advice) because I couldnt handle the side effects, I dont know what else is left? I have tried most antidepressants with little or no result. I dont know what to do. I refuse to take Nardil, I really dont want to be on another MAOI. I think the risk of stroke is just too much of a worry for me. When I was younger and was anorexic I had some kind of stroke/episode (it never really got explained) where I lost my ability to talk for a while and that was pretty scary I dont want anything like that to ever happen again, or for something worse to happen. My psychatrist wont perscribe lamictal. He wont perscribe Ritalin or anything else like that (he says i dont have ADHD so he wont perscribe it(but i dont think id take it anyway because again I am scared of medication that can potentially increase blood pressure). It doesnt make sence to me. He will give little kids ritalin and amphetamines but not me, even though Im an adult? Go figure. I was thinking maybe tegretol? I have read that it has some anti-depressant effects but again I dont know.
Ive just been on so many drugs im really sick of it all. Ive probably been on close to 35 different medications in total for my mental problems in the last few years. Its crazy. But i know a lot of you on this group are in the same boat as me. Anyway thanks for reading and take care.
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