Posted by banga on February 21, 2005, at 7:36:39
In reply to Holding up only for my family, and failing, posted by musil on February 21, 2005, at 5:40:36
That's your depression more than anything saying that you deserve the pain. Try and ease yourself with that thought. I am sorry for all the difficulties you are facing. I am sure your family would support your going to the hospital...
sometimes it does come down to that--hanging in just for family. I have been there....Lexapro pooped put on me too, and quite quickly. I wonder if that is the case--that its effectiveness can go quicker than other than other meds. There is help out there, and in terms of meds -there are plenty other meds that can help you with the intensity of the depression.
You are obviously dealing with so much...has counseling and therapy ever helped, just so you have someone to talk to openly about all this? It sounds like such a burden to carry all by yourself. You clearly feel deeply about your family and I am sure they care deeply about you and want you to do what you need to to get better. I too sometimes am wracked with grief and guilt that my family has to deal with my depression and difficulty working up to my capacity. I even think--they just dont realize they'd be better off without me. But it isnt true, not at all. Especially for kids. When I start getting out of the depression my viewpoint does change, as I am able to cope with things better and give a little back to my family. I see that I am a part of them, and see what pain I'd cause if I did not keep trying to find ways to help myself, so I can be with them and share life with them.
If it is at the point that hospital seems the way to go, go for it. They can help you get to a med that helps quicker. Did Lexapro work for you for a while adequately? There are so many options out there, hang in! it's worth it.
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