Posted by Spriggy on February 9, 2005, at 16:45:04
I am at my wit's end here.
As much as I hate to, I think I'm going to have to go back and get on some kind of medicine.
I had a break down today and felt very suicidal. I find myself thinking strange thoughts.. like today while driving a big semi truck was coming by, I thought, " if I would just pull right out in front of him, I could end this now and be better."
Those thoughts are really starting to worry me. I have two young son's, one is autistic and needs me. I can't afford to leave my children but I can't afford to be this way either.
I'm at such a loss.
I had a horrible reaction to Lexapro so my dr. has suggested Wellbutrin XL (at only 150mg's). I am just wondering if because of my dysphoric/manic state on Lexapro, I should be on a mood stabilizer while going on Wellbutrin too.
Any ideas what would work for me?
I'm extremely depressed and a bit "uncomfortable" in my skin/mind. I don't know how to explain that one, just feel really weird in my own body. Not quite or totally "agitated" but more like mentally restless.
Any thoughts?
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