Posted by banga on December 26, 2004, at 14:30:08
In reply to Re: Longest devere depression?, posted by crazychickuk on December 26, 2004, at 13:23:37
My heart goes out to you. Depression can come in many shapes and forms and lengths. There are definitely people who have suffered for very long periods, and eventually found something that worked. I am so inspired that you have not relented, that is such a sign of your courage, at some point it will pay off. Not knowing when and how is so hard.
My latest depression has been more on than off for over 4 years. I have had periods of remission, but they have not lasted very long, almost more of a tease as I begin to try and set up a more normal existence, only to have it get nowhere before the depression comes back; but given that some meds have helped even short-term, I still try to seek what med will help and keep on helping. So I have had at least a few sunny days that help push me forward. But I lack the strength I sense in you to persevere.
I too have that crippling anxiety component. It is so draining and tiring to try and combat it, as well as the negative thoughts induced by depression.
I am currently trying Lamictal, and feel a little encourged especially after a very disheartening experience with Cymbalta. For me, the completely unrelenting part in the last 2 years of my disability is a brain fog that does not lift. I am living as if life were on the other side of a window-I can see everything, hear everything but it is all muted and not tangible. This then is the element that disheartens me the most. I try to keep the faith that someday it will lift.Just hang in there, keep looking. People on this board and other places will be with you.
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