Posted by Spector on December 26, 2004, at 1:48:03
I am in a depression that was caused by taking Adderall (prescribed to me by a psychiatrist who knew my medical history) which triggered a bipolar relapse after 13-1/2 years of complete remission.
I have been in the depression part of this relapse for over 2 years. It is not a mild depression, or even a moderate one that I am limping along with. It has been nearly incapacitatingly severe with crippling anxiety, causing me to have had to leave my home, my dear husband, and my career in order to move back into my mom's house for full time care.
I have tried 13 drugs, ECT, CBT and about 12 or so additional therapies more on the alternative side. I am currently working with a very experienced homeopathic doctor and pray -- really more like beg -- that she will be able to help me.
I probably don't have to tell many of you reading this the unspeakable toll this has taken on me and my family. I do not hesitate to say that it has been mental and physical torture.
I've become preoccupied with the length of time it has gone on. The four depressions I had when I was much younger (was just as treatment-resistant then) were horrific, but they ended within 4 to 5 months.
Am I correct that a depression this severe lasting this long -- 25 unrelenting months so far -- is quite rare? I am assuming that it has been so cruelly stubborn because it was drug induced, but I would like to hear if other people have experienced or know of a very severe depression lasting this long, whether drug induced or not.
Thank you,
Nomi
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