Posted by D minor on December 13, 2004, at 23:31:50
I know this subject makes some people feel uncomfortable. So please don't read this if you think you may be triggered. I just really have to ask this.
I read earlier on the board that psychosis is sometimes linked with suicidality. What is it exactly about being psychotic that makes one suicidal?
I'm afraid that I may be more psychotic than I think. I just have the occasional hallucination every few days, I don't think they've ever gone away completely. Harmless I'd say. My mood is fine. But not a day goes by where at some point I don't think "I want to die." It just comes as a strong urge. I think about ways of killing myself, none seem appealing, then it goes away.
Sometimes I think that "ghosts" or something are trying to send me messages to kill myself. Like by flashing the word "suicide" on TV. I konw it's ridiculous and untrue, but part of me wonders. Then other times the hallucinations get really annoying. Just like hearing bells and chimes over and over.
Should I be concerned? Or do I have to have a full on parting with reality to be counted as truely psycotic and thus at risk for suicide. (Diagnosis by the way is BP with psychotic features). Could there be some hallucinogentic influences that I'm unaware of?
dm
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