Posted by tampagirl70 on November 15, 2004, at 15:30:51
In reply to Re: Zonegran OCD/Anxiety, posted by hollyocd on November 15, 2004, at 15:01:15
I was on the Fairlite OCD site too, back in 2000 I think. I'm having the same problem you're talking about - not knowing if there's really a problem with my marriage or if its just OCD. I also count stuff and do other little things that could be considered compulsions, but nothing that takes up hours or even minutes of my time. When I first started obsessing in college, it was after I did something I wasn't proud of and felt really bad about myself. It went on for about 2 or 3 weeks, then it went away. That was in 1991. The next time it happened was in 1993 and I had just met my husband. We got engaged shortly after we met and I freaked out suddenly and had all of these thoughts and fears racing through my mind. What if I really don't love him? How do I know I love him? WHat if we're not supposed to be together? What if I don't like him in 2, 5 or 10 years/weeks/months? It just went on and on and was complete misery. Again, this lasted for a month or so and then it went away. The next time was in 1998 and it was obsessing about getting fired, getting a disease and then the whole love thing came into it, just for fun I guess (NOT!). That's when I was diagnosed and things were pretty calm until 2000 when I lost a job and then it got crazy again. From 2000 til this year has been pretty steady; I've had some minor obsessing and earlier this year tried going off my meds. That was a disaster and I quickly realized I need them. I hate to admit I need them, but I'm glad they're out there to help me. About a month ago I had a cold and was home from work watching TLC and A Wedding Story came on. Ever since then, I've been obsessing about my marriage and have been depressed for almost 3 weeks now. I was feeling much better last week, then Saturday afternoon I crashed and now am down again.
Instead of communicating this way, we can Babblemail. You have to turn it on in the Registration section. I'd love to "compare notes" with you some more.
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