Posted by Ilene on October 19, 2004, at 11:35:18
In reply to Re: Unlikelihood of remission » Ilene, posted by fallsfall on October 19, 2004, at 9:27:32
> Sigh.
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> The way I look at it (for me) is that I have severe depression. I've been disabled for 8 of the last 10 years. I've tried so many meds. I've been in therapy. I'm still depressed.
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> BUT... My life, like all lives, changes. I may not be back at work, but I have started blowing leaves, and I removed quantities of dust from my family room, and I *did* clean out my freezer. I don't know if I'm getting better, or if I'm just learning to cope better. Dinah uses the term "glacial" to describe her progress. I think I could use that word, too. And lots of times I seem to be going backwards. But I know that if I gave up I would go backwards very quickly.
>Yes, I'd agree that cleaning out your freezer is "glacial" progress ;-)
I'm trying not to give up. Right now I'm angry at my doctors for telling me I will likely never be normal again. On the other hand, they treat lots of patients, so they speak with a certain amount of authority.
> Changing from CBT to Psychodyanmic therapy was very helpful for me. Accepting a less-than-perfect medication cocktail that at least allows me to feel a little stable can be better than jumping on the "let's try a new med" rollercoaster.
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> My doctor is now saying that I may never go back to work full time. I don't like hearing this, but in a sense, it helps take the pressure off - and the pressure makes things worse for me.
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> So I guess I'm suggesting: Don't give up, there are new things around every corner. But don't demand unreasonable things from yourself either.I'm trying not to be unreasonable. All I want is a normal life. Nothing special.
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