Posted by jonh kimble on October 9, 2004, at 23:39:27
hey how are u guys? I post here do to our similar problems and our hopeful recovery. Im 20, going to uni. in florida, orig. from canada. Anyway I want to see a doc here in naples who I believe will be understanding of my situation. I want to go on a regimine of methamphetamine(add nmda antagonist) and clonazepam, and whould love to know how yall got that to work, as in getting doc to understand prob. I dont think theres much litteratue I can show to support that I should be on meth, possibly the most addictive drug known, use a dissacotiative (dxm) to prevent tolerance (which also has no indication for this use) to this med (meth) which I have no indication for its use either, and top it of with another abusable scheduled drug, clono. Oh and I need high doses because drugs dont effect me much(which to them could easily be interpreted as I need my fix so I can continue to screw up my life beyond belief.)While nothing could be farther from the truth. These drugs help me live an objectively good life in which nothing else to my knowledge has or can help. See I have social anxiety with some depression and other anxiety probs. It destroys me. I ahve ended up in three pysch wards ive been so depressed, and to me the answers so simple. I have tried to remedy this with Cbt, standard antidepressants and friendly neighborhood advice. My experience is that doctors simply say that you havent given other options a fair chance (they think waisting five years on the uselessness
isnt enough) and when I push myself to go into a social event and it doesnt work, they say, oh youre obviosly underestimating your performance. Im sure you did fine and this proves to me that you dont have the probs as bad as youve listed. If not for the moral and legal reasons, I would now be a mass murderer. (please dont take that seriously, im just frustrated to the point of insanety) All thats worked is the stims and benzos in general. I currently have 1 mg of clono a day from one doc, and another whose willing to pres. ritalin or dex in adequate doses, which makes me llok like a doctor shopper Im sure.My emails stopwhining@email.com so if theres any thing to discuss that wouldnt be best on this board please, I would love you're feedback! And let me know how I can help you too, totally. Also Im stuck in a uni of hardcore catholics and im a hard core atheist, so if ya wanna talk about, that or anything let me know. Thanks again.
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