Posted by Racer on October 7, 2004, at 20:40:01
In reply to IM SCARED AGAIN plse help :-S, posted by crazychickuk on October 7, 2004, at 16:43:19
I take it you decided against going back on Effexor, even though you said that it helped you so much while you were on it? You just got the new prescription -- which you had asked your doctor for -- and you discussed your fears of taking it here recently.
What you're describing sounds like a combination of anxiety and withdrawal. You kinda know that you're overreacting, or at least have indicated in the past that you're aware of it, and you certainly know that your fear of taking the drugs is in conflict with the knowledge that they have helped you in the past. The anxiety is getting in the way of you being able to reconcile those two, in such a way as to allow you to help yourself.
Here's a question for you: where do you want to be in your life one year from today?
If the answer is, "One year from today, I want to be sitting in the same place, in a panic, worried that I'll die or everyone around me will die, and afraid that taking the medication will make me worse," then by all means ignore what your doctor is telling you. On the other hand, if you want to be at a better level a year from now, and maybe even on the way to being medication free, listen to your doctor, listen to the advice you've been given here, take the medication you were prescribed, and use the relief it provides to work on improving the circumstances of your life so that you don't have to go through this again.
I'm sorry if I sound harsh right now. I'm in that sort of a mood today. What I'm saying, though, I honestly believe. I think that -- right now, at least -- you *need* to be medicated. I think that the longer it takes you to recognize that, the longer you're going to suffer -- and the worse it will become. Look at the practical side of this: what if you don't resume medication, and your daughter is deemed at risk because of your untreated mental illness and taken from you? What if you lose your housing? What if you end up in the psychiatric hospital? Those are things that can happen if you do not get treatment.
And get into therapy, because that will help you get OFF the medications once you've stabilized.
I hope that you will decide, for your own sake, to start the Effexor again.
poster:Racer
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