Posted by verne on September 17, 2004, at 13:02:41
In reply to Re: benzo request » verne, posted by iris2 on September 17, 2004, at 11:12:07
Thanks all for the suggestions. I will suggest klonopin to the doctor.
I've tried all the AD's, SSRI's, TRC's, mood levelers, and everything but MAO's. My diagnosis has varied from schizophrenic or schizo-affective to atypical depression to bipolar. I think I've seen OCD in there a couple times too.
I have alot of features of borderline personality disorder and PTSD. I used to self injure until I was in my 30's and I fit the BPD profile. The PTSD stems, not from my military service, but from childhood. My mother tried to kill me and my siblings and put my dad in the hospital with a knife wound to the chest which I witnessed when I was about 3 years old. They were both alcoholics and probably had all kinds of undiagnosed stuff. I ended up in a foster home for 5 years.
Anyway, I'm definetly BPD with depression thrown in. The reason I want a benzo is for the almost constant anxiety. The inderal actually helps with that although it is prescribed for high blood pressure. Years ago at the VA hospital they gave inderal to patients who lost control because it is so calming.
I hope to start the borderline skills course soon - by myself at home. I also want to get back into meditating. I know benzos are disinhibiting and probably not indicated for BPD and PTSD but the anxiety, or what one doc called emotional pain, is too much at times.
Thanks for all your responses.
Verne
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