Posted by WAKI on August 17, 2004, at 13:48:35
In reply to Re: Bye Bye Ambien, Hello Restoril, posted by reefer on August 17, 2004, at 7:34:09
I have trouble falling a sleep, I wake up throughout the night. I then was taking a nap or naps during the day. I estimate that at least 30% if not more of my depression was poor sleep. I would be in a "funk" "zombie" stage every 4 days for a couple days until I napped and revived some.
I love this Restoril, it also gives me normal pleasany dreams.
That Strattera was really messing me up I had the craziest dreams.
This is embarrasing but funny. I need to laugh at myself more anyway. A few weeks ago I had a dream about my college football days.
We were playing Ohio State. I sacked Mike Tomzack the QB of Ohio State, remember him he used to play for the Bears and Pittsburg?
Anyway I hit him so hard I knocked his helmet off and the ball fumbled. I scrambled and jumped and grabed the ball. I woke up I was on the ground. I had jumped off my bed looking for the ball. I was still in a daze and tried to go back to sleep to get back in the game. That is just one of the crazy dreams I had. All were about 15 to 20 years ago.
In summary I am sleeping really well and "normal" on this Restoril.
I am feeling so lucky and fortunate lately with all the success I am having with my treatment. I read other message posts and remember the feeling. I find myself sort of feeling bad for feeling good.
This message board is a god send for me. I'm kind of a high pride 100% guy type of person. I am embaressed to tell anybody 99% of what goes on in my head. I feel like a crazy person (I know there is no crazy people) and can't bring myself to expell my thoughts and experiences. I don't think anybody I know would understand any of the experiences I have.
I am feeling so relieved my issues are leaving my mind. I think i was creating an enourmous amount of anxiety "faking normal." I mentioned this before but at one time I had a PHd Phychologist as a girlfriend, a Masters degreed Psych Nurse and an ER doc. Each of these women I faked to be normal. When I look back you would not believe the energy I used to fake being normal.
Every minute of the day I acted being normal. Whats really ill is I did not know I was faking it. Dumb me I thought everyone battled the war of life acting content.
Anyway, I rambled again but it felt good to get this off my conscience so it was therapy for me.
Cheers,
M8
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