Posted by RWF on August 13, 2004, at 18:14:50
Please somebody...anybody...help me:
I am 26 years old, Married with two children. Lately I have been having serious thoughts of hurting myself in order to make the anxiousness and pain go away. I am living in a constant fright for no reason whatsoever.
I start to feel like time is flying and not slowing down enough for me to enjoy it. What am I to do?
I have scary thoughts of hurting others even though I know that I am not capable of hurting a fly. The harder I try to suppress the images...the more they hover over my mind.
I have been on Effexor XR but it never helped. I am addicted to Ativan, no thanks to my P-Doc, and now he wants me to try Seroquel to "ease the anxiety!"
Will anything work? I am too scared to try the Seroquel because of how I felt with Remeron...Sedated, agitated, and depressed.
Why do they prescribe these dangerous drugs if none of them help?
I just want to run and hide and never come out of my shell anymore...I am scared to death to go to work, go outside, or go to a friends. I am avoiding public places and situations. I have no where to turn.
I cannot be hospitalized. I cannot let everyone know that I am a neurotic freak instead of a cool, calm, and collected guy. This should never of happened to me.
I see no light at the end of this tunnel and am scared to death to do anything that "might" help me treat this problem.
I am afraid that the Seroquel will make me hallucinate or just outright sedate me to the point that I will not know who I am or what I am doing.
I just can't do this anymore.
I know that all of you who use this message board are here for a reason, and if any of you have been helped by these medications...please help me.
I just want to be able to read to my son, and enjoy life, but I can't. And I don't know why.
Why am I depressed? Why am I the one to burden this annoyance and overbearing beast?
I am constantly feeling guilty...I am constantly feeling and thinking of this terror that has taken over my thought process and way of life.
My wife will sooner leave me if I have to be hospitalized or lose my job. I will lose the respect of my colleagues as well as my employees and will forever be dubbed "crazy" if they ever find out.
Somebody help...what can I do?
poster:RWF
thread:377353
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