Posted by Harlock on July 7, 2004, at 11:48:58
In reply to What's going on with me???? PLEASE RESPOND, posted by Notaliseliz on July 4, 2004, at 5:28:50
Hmmm, to me, you sound manic as well. I used to be super-irritable, angry, full of rage, etc. I used to snap at my wife, had road rage so bad that you wouldn't believe it if I explained it, etc.
I've never heard of the drugs you are on, but take that with a grain of salt.
It sounds like you need a mood stabilizer (again, not sure if one of those you are on is one).
One thing that really calmed me down was Symbyax. A drug I haven't seen discussed here too much. It does have sexual side effects, but they are light, meaning, I can still have sex, if I ever wanted to (which I don't now).
I take Wellbutrin for energy (keeps me awake) and Symbyax (which I believe is just prozac and zyprexa in one pill), and I just got put onto Lamictal to try to control my mood swings.
Right now, I find little to no enjoyment in life. I have two "good" days (which equates to, it's not a "bad" day), then I have 1-2 bad days. I go up and down like a yo-yo.
Personally, I'd rather have the rage again, and swap it with the depression. At least when I was angry, I could enjoy living. I've also had thoughts of suicide lately, which I never really had before.
I'm not productive at work, and I struggle severely to get out of bed and actually go there. I'm pretty useless when I'm there. Anyhoo, I'm a 35-year old male software engineer, just for a frame of reference.
If a particular drug isn't working for you, definately tell your doctor about it. Hopefully, he/she will explain about tapering off of it. A few of these drugs discussed here cause nasty withdrawal effects if you just stop taking them suddenly.
You may need to try a different cocktail of meds and need to find the right dosages in order to for them to help you. This can take 1 month, to many years depending on the person. I've been changing meds for 5-10 years, much of this happening in the last 2 years, but everyone is different.
Have faith, and hang in there. Try to remember that your brain fighting against you. Life really isn't as bad as your brain makes you think it is.
About 2 months ago, I had a couple weeks where I felt amazing, so I know there's hope. If you think of suicide, remember your husband and children, and other loved ones, and how negatively effected they would be if you hurt yourself, or worse.
I wish you good luck. I'm in the same boat as you, just with some different symptoms, although I share a few of yours.
> Hi all,
> I was diagnosed with depression about 10 years ago, but my problems started way before then.
> My doctor has recently suggested cyclothymia and he changed me from an SSRI to oxycarba...whatever. I'm doing EXTREMELY BAD. I have no side effects, but it's like the devil is inside me.
> I'm talking to my husband about divorce and thinking of running off and offing myself. My "moods" are swinging 180° every 5 minutes. I'm MEAN and NASTY and IRRITABLE over everything. It's so hard to talk to my doctor because I live in a country that's not my own and my vocabulary in this new language isn't good enough to express myself completely.
> For me everything is BLACK and NEGATIVE and life just generally sucks. It's affecting my kids and my marriage, and even my social life. I'm not having trouble sleeping (any more than ususal) and my eating habits haven't changed. I'm feeling totally irrational and out of control.
> Could this be an anxiety problem? Should I pursue anti-anxiety drugs? I've been on this oxycarb stuff for about 1 month, and off the SSRI for about the same time. I went thru a nasty bout of withdrawl (dizziness, fuzziness) about 2 weeks ago, but that's stopped.
> I really need some advice.
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