Posted by kittencat on May 10, 2004, at 4:23:57
In reply to Re: Please help me understand schizophrenia/ Abili, posted by jubei on May 10, 2004, at 3:35:10
> Drugs have only brought extraordinary misery into my life. They put me on powerful anti-psychotics like geodon even though I only have depression and anxiety, I am now going through a withdrawal of geodon that is so horrible I can't describe it in words, humans haven't come up with a physical description as to the pain that these drugs can cause you. People that are psychotic shouldn't even be on them, my horrible experiences make me want to invent a new system of psychology that is more effective just so people don't have to go on the road to drugs. They always get you in the beginning, they are like great salespeople...these doctors and scientists. The companies they work for know that the person they are trying to sell the drug to is going through pain and that they would probably rather find a quick answer in drugs then work things out in their tives for themselves or with psychologists of every nature. Don't let them fool you that you need something as dangerous as these drugs....the side effects are common and it is unfortunate that it is even more common for doctors to not assess the symptoms seriously enough, usually scoffing at them as if they are a fabrication of the patients mind. I hope there are many people reading this post, I want to help people before they make the same mistakes that I did. Hopefully there is enough time for me left but it is better for one to have not taken this road to begin with. I can post so many stories of the experiences I've had with various psychiatrists and whatnot, and how careless they are in their patients well being. Anyway, there is a good reason why you are questioning such action by your doctor, you should trust yourself before anyone else, I know this may sound pessimistic but in reality they really don't care much about what happens to you. They don't go to sleep at night wondering if what they gave you is going to effect your liver or give you panic attacks so horrible that it feels like a million razors slashing you continually without rest while being paralyzed in thought and body. So if you want the lesser hell, stick with depression sans the pathetic anti-psychotics.
Jubei,
I feel what you are saying, & I'm up all night again, sleepless, but at least gleaning valueable information from this sight. I read a few of your earlier posts regarding your stance on psychotropic drugs, & I have to say, you make a lot of cogent points. I keep going back and forth in my mind...on the way home today, I was convinced that the first thing I would do when I walked through the door would be to throw the Abilify into the garbage can...(I have the luxury of receiving free samples from the doc, so I have thrown away quite an assortment of stuff he has given me in the past that I didn't want to take). Sadly enough, he is so far removed from my treatment that he never even asks how these drugs worked out when I come back for a visit, because he doesn't seem to remember giving them to me. He just tells me to "call him with any progress", but doesn't contact me if he doesn't hear from me. But then tonight, I found an old thread where tons of people are just raving about how much better Abilify made them feel! I don't want to miss out on something that could be "the one", but I'm scared. I feel for your withdrawal from Geodon...I don't know if it's similar, but I withdrew from Effexor six weeks ago, & I am still having nasty, uncomfortable symtoms, and this is exactly what scares me. Never mind how much the doctors don't know...check out how much I don't know. I would never have believed a drug (Effexor) could do this to you...I mean, joint pain & crying spells after six weeks? Why?? & I almost understand my doctor scoffing at me (though it hurts & angers me), because it does seem entirely bizarre & exaggerated. Those of us who have gone through withdrawal understand, though. If you read my post from the last period entitled, "My doctor is not listening", you may better understand where I am coming from. I believe in the power of the mind over the body & vice-versa, I am a dancer & a long distance runner, I get lots of exercise, eat super healthy, yoga, mediation, bla bla. My point is, I'm not just sitting around waiting for the miracle drug...but I truly believe I need drugs, & maybe always will. My depression is too powerful, and left untreated, I always attempt harm to myself. I've had all of the ad's...all of them except the MAOIs, & only Prozac has worked. I want to give the Abilify a try, but after what I went through with the Effexor withdrawals, I am scared silly to guinea pig myself into something new. No one has mentioned Abilify withdrawals...I don't think I could live through that kind of pain & psychosis again. What to do. I just don't know. Well. maybe I do, but what if Abilify is as wonderful as they say??
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