Posted by Carlos C on May 2, 2004, at 8:36:16
In reply to Re: AntiDepressants - A trip to hell. My take. » Carlos C, posted by flipsactown on May 2, 2004, at 4:50:06
Thank you for that thoughtful reply. It actually made me feel a little better. That's worth more than gold to me right now. I really do hope that Nardil can help you. I have to be honest though...and this is not to discourage you. As as they say, your mileage may vary so take this as you may.
At first I really thought Nardil was my magic bullet. After many trails on all the popular, hyper-marketed anti-depressants I really thought "this is it!" I had to almost con my doctor into writing a prescription. I guess pfizer doesn't make Naril pens and clocks for the office??? (I tend to notice company logo (Effexxor, Celexa, Wellbutrin, Lexapro, etc. paraphenaila pop up in the office when a new drug popped up on the market as I walked away with some 'free samples') Anywho.. back to my Nardil story.
The first few weeks were kinda foggy. I experienced a lot of headaches and orthrostatic hypotension (I would nearly faint after standing from a sitting or laying position). I actully had this happen to me while in public and it wasn't pretty. After that became tolerated and eventually subsided I began to notice that my appetite actually DEcreased and the bothersome side-effects were shadowed or masked by a slight euphoria. Life was looking brighter. I had ambition and reason for living. Got back to working, not afraid of going out of the house, meeting new people, making friends just having a good ol' time. To make a very long story short, things started to go down hill eventually. I started to get the envidable poop-out phynomenom. The fatique was becoming unbearable and interfering with my life. This along with the now increased appetite caused me to gain a substantial amount of weight. I was always image-consious and had always tried my best to eat healthy and exercise. Maintaining lean mass and a low body fat percentage were important to me. So needless to say after the once awesome anti-anxiety and anti-depressant qualities of Nardil wore I was left a depressed, anxious, extremely low self-esteemed individual. I tried upping my doseage, tried lowering my doseage, tried stopping for periods of time and restarting. Nothing seemed to bring back that magic. I'm now finally off all "pyscho-meds". To be completely honest, I'm not sure if I'm better or worse? Pysically I feel like I've been reborn. No more consipation, bloating, faiting, spike and surges in mood, blood pressure, or the extreme fatique (just to name a few side-effects). I'm trying to set some goals for myself which tends to be a double edged sword for me. Half of me says I'll never achive them while the other half really wants to try. For instance I plan to rid of gut and get my body back! One of my main triggers of depression is awful self-image. I think if I can be "comfortable in my skin" I can be more relaxed and in turn easy my anxiety, which in turns typically lead me to a state of depressive thoughts.
OK...So I'll leave it at that for now I'm starting to make less and less sense. Once again I really do wish you the best. You seem like a very warm person and if we could all be a little more nicer I think it would be gratifying for all. Take care.
Carlos.
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