Posted by Carlos C on May 2, 2004, at 2:11:12
I really thought I had my life back. After a slow rise to what seemed like nirvana ended in a sharp decend to hell. The last year of my life has been ruined. I'm now half-way through 22 and don't see any future ahead of me. Nardil seemed to like the answer I was looking for. I could handle a good job for months untill I eventually fell apart. I started gaining weight, food and fatigue took control. I started getting more and more depressed. More and more obsessed. The mood-swings were unbelievable. Lashing out voilently at friends and loved ones. Therapy only helped me realize that I'll never be able to function "normally" in society. I've practically lost all hope. I feel better physically since quiting (Nardil) but I'm back in the black hole. Depressed as ever. All my friends have deserted me, writing me off as insane. Too scared to face them (or anyone for that matter). I can't say I blame them. They just don't understand. The whole situation has left me feeling embarassed, to say the least.
I've been a member on here for about three years. I had a love/hate relationship with pysc meds. I now litterally feel sick when I see a ad or promotion for anti-depressants.
I hope you all the best and that you can be strong.
poster:Carlos C
thread:342387
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