Posted by drrisin06 on April 29, 2004, at 11:08:51
In reply to Re: How To Determine If My P-doc is discriminating?, posted by King Vultan on April 29, 2004, at 8:10:00
Thanx, Yeah well one of the reasons I went to her in the first place was because I needed to find a DR to prescribe me medicines also the place I was refferred to was for dual diagnosis, I heard good things, that they treated your mental illness and any substance abuse, but they understod alot of people use drugs because they were undiagnosed
and that w/ the proper medication ,people would have no reason to "self-medicate"
I started off there in a group-setting. One doctor monitored us all. Than the group leader and I decided that this group was more for people that couldn't stop drinking, or smoking crack or using other drugs. I was not at that point.
I knew I had some symptoms, and I really wanted to see a 1 on 1 dr. However Things got twisted.
When I was in the group, The DR kept me on 20mg of valium, I was fine on that, than when they transferred me to this other Dr, she automatically
started to take me off the diazapam, she didn't listen to my symptoms of panic-attacks..ect...also she heard that I had talked to The group DR about Ritalin. She told me that a "red flag" went up , she didn't even hear any
of my complaints. kept taking me off the valium,than when I had gotten a good job that recquired real intense attention, she put me right on wellbutrin. She will not budge. I have not ever asked for my valium early, she just looks at is as an addiction, and could care less about actual anxiety symptoms because she knows I dont feel the valium but refuses to up my dose. I dont understand because if she's so against me beeing on benzo's. It seems If Im on them im on them so I might as well get a theraputic effect.
I know I need to find another DR.
I try to voice these things to her, but she
will not stray. I could give a shit about the actual drugs, thats not my focus, but she makes it be By continually treating me like a full blown junkie. I am so stressed from just going to her appointments, I cannot get out what I want to say to her, I trip on my words.Because if i say the wrong thing she will use it against me. I wrote her one letter because it was the only way I could communicate w/her,But now I'm scared of having anything in writting she could use the wrong way.
So My biggest problem is feeling I'm stuck with her.
I 1st fealt if I stuck with her, she'd get to know me, and not keep steriotyping-labelling.
Also finding another DR, Im not sure the best way to go about it. What do i say to the new DR. Can I not give the New Dr the old Dr's Name. I'm sure he will ask,God i feel like the feeling when say, a cop ask you a question and you know your not guilty, but feel the need to be defensive.
i'm 31, I've been on many different meds, and I do know what helps, but I dont want to give off the impression Im just drug-seeking,however it seems that the dr's go there all on there own.
I'm going through EMDR w another psychologist, he
advises the same thing about finding another Dr.
Perhaps its the whole starting over w another that I hate doing. However I need to do something because one should not go out of a dr's more stressed than when comes in.
I'm on medicaid, and usually the dr's are hard to find and the clinics are months and months booked up. I could request a new Dr in the same place,but im sure My Dr would tell the new one her twisted perspective, But at this point i really haven't a choice.
thanx
ris
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