Posted by alathea on March 7, 2004, at 23:14:49
In reply to Re: bipolar or not (long) » bark2323, posted by B2chica on March 7, 2004, at 17:12:27
>I agree with the hypo, most descriptions make it sound pleasureable, it would be if it didn't include a rage that would turn ghandi into ted bundy. I feel some paranoia but it's mostly that i think everyone is talking about me behind my back, i know it's not real so i try not to act on it. Also the hypo can get to the point that i can't complete anything at work (start lots though), and then the confusion sets in cuz stuff goes so fast, then frustration cuz everyone is so freaking Slow!
This is weird. I came to this board because my pdoc has been trying to convince me for EIGHT years that I'm BP, and I keep resisting it, so I wanted to see what other people supposedly 'like me' are like, and if they're like you guys, then I'm afraid he's right. Not that I haven't already come to some level of acceptance, I just always come back around and decide it's all in my head again. Most recently I found myself up against the harsh reality of the fact that I can't finish school or keep my son or my marriage if I go off my meds (I went off my meds just to find out, it wasn't pretty).
One of the biggest reasons I didn't believe my Dx was because of the furious manic thing--I had some idea that mania was supposed to be all euphoric and crap--I just get raging blazing furious and hate everything and lose control and get paranoid etc etc etc.....
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