Posted by francesco on February 13, 2004, at 18:25:10
This can be weird or it can be just me. There's a girl I like that can make my life hell or heaven. If I feel she wants me I'm fine, if I think she doesn't want me I'm very depressed.
We have a relationship that lasted for the last one year and an half, but it's a very unstable relationship, first of all because 'I' am unstable, second because we are a kind of 'just friends', so sometimes I can't see her for weeks.
I don't want to tell my story life but I think my depression's episodes have coincided with the times she confessed me she had been with another man while I was hypo when she was mine and no one else's. Why am I saying all this here ?
My psychiatrist says I'm bipolar II or something like. But I know what causes me the 'crisis'. He never asked me 'why' I was depressed and he never asked me 'why' I was hypo. This isn't supposed to be important.
Possibile conclusions:
1. I have a borderline personality disorder
2. biopsychiatry is a bulls**tI mean, people are usually depressed for 'real' reasons, because there are things that they would like and they don't manage to get. I don't want to say that there isn't a something like endogenous depression but, how many of us are affected by it ? If we take meds but the things that make us depressed, whatever they are, don't change will we not continue to be depressed ?
poster:francesco
thread:312973
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