Posted by katia on January 8, 2004, at 22:36:56
In reply to Re: Lithium, posted by fluffy on January 8, 2004, at 17:27:08
Hi Katy,
Yes, I'm slightly better, but i'm still drugged feeling/stuporish. (try doing bikram yoga like this it's a riot - before you know it the entire class has passed you by). I'm really really tired.
As far as the Depakote titration, I think you can go to the max right away.
> Today I feel_________. I think it's funny about your mood chart--not knowing where your mood fits. (it's like there should be another blank that says "drugged out of my mind". That's what I'd fill in today i think.**Yes, I'm drawing big ? marks thru my lithium stupor days. The plus side is my agitation/irritability has subsided considerably. But I don't have access to me. I didn't realize my grammar was off! I wonder what/how others think/see me?
> i don't know what's up with my limbs. For whatever reasons, when I try a new mood stabilizer, I've had these really physical side effects...heavyness in my limbs, looseness of my grip, stiffness in my hands...this is scary!!
> Today, after the first depakote dose, my hands feel like they've fallen asleep (or just after--they feel heavy and uncoordinated). It really scares me. I don't want to tell my doctor until it is really a problem. I really don't want to discontinue another drug so soon. So we'll see if this clears up in a week or so. How long does the full dose of Depakote take to build up in your system? Isn't it faster than most mood stabilizers?**I kinda have that now - big stiff bear claw :-)Clumsy like and slow.
> Other than the heavy hands--I'm depressed as sh*t. I had to take a crying break today instead of a lunch break. All I could think about is why my doctors would even want to keep me alive--and how cruel it is to even do that to someone who is suffering. I've been pretty f*uckin' depressed this week. I just want to be better, but I'm tired of suffering. I have intermittently thought of going to the hospital. But really, I don't know what difference it would make for me right now. I just know my thoughts are really negative right now, and I'm not functioning so well. I feel like "Hal" in 2001 Space Odyssey when the astronauts start to disconnect his wires..."I can feel it".**Oh dear katy, I hear you. You will get better - so will I! Our experiences are so similar it's uncanny.
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> I'm sure in two days I'll be chipper and bouncing around the house, cleaning and sewing, busy as a bee. This is so confusing.
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Keep in touch.
Love,
Katia
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