Posted by stavros on January 3, 2004, at 20:45:38
In reply to Re: Lamictal and Anger? - Cancer of my consciousness » stavros, posted by katia on January 3, 2004, at 19:47:00
> Ditto here. I'm 33 yrs.old and have ruined jobs, relationships etc. and I'm looking at my life and cringing and am VERY alone. I feel like the biggest wierd-o in history and who could put up with me? You're not alone in feeling like this.
> I know those stark raving mad moments. I almost shattered the shower door could barely contain punching it. thank god I did contain it. At times like that I can barely even cry I'm too angry, just howl!! As I was writing in another post, I've been having pretty bad anxiety and rage lately. I'm at 200mg of Lamictal and just started on Lithium two weeks ago and now am at 900mg. I've been on the Lam. for months now AND to top that off, I just got the rash - hopefully not the deadly one. It's all over my body. Don't know if it's because I upped the Lithium and activated the Lam.???? It's very scary. So I'm off the Lamictal now as of tomorrow. We'll see what happens to my INTENSE EDGINESS AND RAGE AND IRRITABILITY AND MY SNAPPINESS AT ANYONE WHO DOES THE SLIGHTEST THING TO ANNOY ME!!! I hope to be sane one day too and have a family and career etc. But for right now, I have to work this one out. I'm also somewhere around BPII/Mixed and was just recently diagnosed. I've been living untreated and undiagnosed for too long a time. At least we're on the road to getting proper help that will enable us to have those things. That's the bright side.
> KatiaKatia, So sorry to hear of the similiar challenges you face. Like yourself recently i could rip someone in half at the slightest thing. I have been like this for the last 10 yrs, more or less and have made no real progress. The uncontrolled anger is sometimes justified but i don't usually get that effect from meds? I am sure you will do better than I. Bummer re: the rash. SJ rash is very rare and I doubt you haveit. I have never heard of anyone getting it and i was in the medical industry.
I can't blame others for not being able to understand me as i can't even understand myself. In relationships i get hurt, make poor decisions, lose my appetite, sleep and drive? This is rediculous, now my problem has gone global into every area of my life. Currently my rage has calmed down since i initially posted but i cannot bring myself to get out of the house on this Saturday nite during the prime of my life? I didn't spend christmas with my family either but that was the least of my problems to deal with. I usually isolate when feeling this poorly. Now i am getting angry but not enrarged
writing this. I look forward to hearing of your progress in the near future and your positive attitude is appreciated! No more in 2004,let it end!S
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