Posted by katia on January 3, 2004, at 19:47:00
In reply to Lamictal and Anger? - Cancer of my consciousness, posted by stavros on December 30, 2003, at 0:07:21
Ditto here. I'm 33 yrs.old and have ruined jobs, relationships etc. and I'm looking at my life and cringing and am VERY alone. I feel like the biggest wierd-o in history and who could put up with me? You're not alone in feeling like this.
I know those stark raving mad moments. I almost shattered the shower door could barely contain punching it. thank god I did contain it. At times like that I can barely even cry I'm too angry, just howl!! As I was writing in another post, I've been having pretty bad anxiety and rage lately. I'm at 200mg of Lamictal and just started on Lithium two weeks ago and now am at 900mg. I've been on the Lam. for months now AND to top that off, I just got the rash - hopefully not the deadly one. It's all over my body. Don't know if it's because I upped the Lithium and activated the Lam.???? It's very scary. So I'm off the Lamictal now as of tomorrow. We'll see what happens to my INTENSE EDGINESS AND RAGE AND IRRITABILITY AND MY SNAPPINESS AT ANYONE WHO DOES THE SLIGHTEST THING TO ANNOY ME!!! I hope to be sane one day too and have a family and career etc. But for right now, I have to work this one out. I'm also somewhere around BPII/Mixed and was just recently diagnosed. I've been living untreated and undiagnosed for too long a time. At least we're on the road to getting proper help that will enable us to have those things. That's the bright side.
Katia
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