Posted by JaybeeTee on January 2, 2004, at 15:45:43
In reply to Re: DESPERATE: depression, weight gain and BPII meds, posted by brussell on January 2, 2004, at 15:21:36
thanks to those who have responded to my post. brussel, you've identified the "stupidity" problem, which i also experienced with depakote. my job requires me to think clearly and analytically - and i can't. but i'm also really depressed, so i don't know the genesis of this particular bout of the "stupids" - can't thibnk of words, lose my train of thought mid-sentence. maddening. i know it may sound odd, but i think the lack of clarity defeats my genuine attempts to get my eating under control and to exercise. it's as though i can't hold a clear, motivational thought thought long enough to follow through. maybe i fixated too much in the past and this is just how it is for "regular" folks, but i miss those states that my p-doc would probably call hypo-manic: the ones that got me into my running shoes and out the door, the ones that let me focus on a project sufficiently to forget about food for more than 5 minutes.
thanks for the support here. it helps, it really does.
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