Posted by katia on December 14, 2003, at 1:09:13
In reply to Re: Quit the Topamax?, posted by Karen_kay on December 13, 2003, at 23:05:03
Hi Karen,
> What did you hallucinate?
> <<< My dead father, skeletons walking on the side of the road, my walls bending, that sort of thing...
> Ahhhh!!! Ummm, well.. Not good! When manic I instigate sex with complete strangers off the street, spend money that I don't have, walk down the street naked (oopsie, is that wrong?), sometimes have auditory hallucinations (hear things that aren't there) such as someone whispering my name and people crying, I have flashed a police car before, drive like a maniac... that type of thing...
**Wow! If that's a description of BPI, then I'm definitely not that. However! I do remember now "running naked through a field" with some guy that I grabbed at a party - just because I liked the sound of it - we went out back - I grew up in a rural area! I was 17 at that time. I have done some wild things - was nominated as Most Wild for senior superlatives in high school. I've had impulsive affairs with strange men and drive like a maniac, but never hallucinated - auditory nor visual. I can't even imagine it. My hypomanias have been far and few between and apart from about six months of a very distince high when I was 17/18 and again when 21, i've rapid cycled. It's been awhile (apart from the past year) that I've felt that wonderful hypo state of inspiration, euphoria, and feeling of being in love with life - giddiness. hypomania can exist in one day for me or for one week, two weeks, but it's mainly mixed state of agitation and irritation, which is where my alcohol comes in - when I"m up, when I'm irritated, and when I'm depressed - mainly the mixed and hypo states. My main thing has been debilitating chronic depression. I"ve become crazy with boyfriends and huge fights etc. So I'm not sure what my dx is - I guess BPII/Mixed.** Where's Muncie?
>I hear you about PMS... I recently started the pill which adds to the mix.. Talk about being emotional! And I thought I didn't have emotions! Ha!!!
**Have you had your hormones tested to see how much of this is hormone related? I'm wondering about me.
<<<<I'm in the same situation... My mother lives in a different state. My boyfriend invited me to his parents, but I feel out of place. I spent last xmas there, but still... I may spend the holidays alone.... It does suck.... I feel like they feel obligated to buy me as many presents as they buy there kids. And I feel like I'm imposing. Waaaaa....... Why can't I have a normal family.......??????????I hate the holidays.....
Ditto on that! I just want a "normal" life and a normal family and I HATE the holidays.
I'm 33.
How old are you and how old were you with your first manic episode?
Katia
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