Posted by crazychickuk on November 29, 2003, at 11:16:35
I am so damm depressed..... again still ... i finally got someone from the mental health center out to see on thursday and i had a phone call friday, they said dr forman (phsyciatrist) will see me in the next few weeks, i am currently on 30mg remeron, have been for 5/6 mnths, all ssri's snri's amd tca's raised my bp to the point i had to come of off them.. I spilt my heart out to the ladie who came to see me on thursday, i was wondering did i say to much? I mentioned the way i feel, as if i aint there, as if i am gonna loose my mind, i also said it is as if i am dead and this world only starts when i am there.which is true. she asked me if i had any messages from the tv? i said no cus i havent, i did mention that i hear voices as i am going to sleep, or i will have the odd song playing in my head.... i feel as if i am gonna loose my mind completely and do things that i am not aware off.... I went to the shop erlier to get some electric tokens and i stood there and everything looked weird to me, as if i were in a dream, i could feel my mind slipping kind of thing, was strange, i couldnt wait to get home... i also couldnt wait for my mum to leave.. i am so scared.. i feel alot worse than what i did last yr and last yr was my worst as i didnt know what was wrong.. i had an mri and was fine the beggining of this yr.. the fear of having a brain tumour went.. but now i fear i am loosing my mind so that is what is scareing me.. i also fear that my phsyciatrist will give me medication that WILL make my mind slip... my mum has been saying to me i will end up in a mental hospital if i carry on the way i am.. so that kind of freaks me out as i can see myself in one!!! i can not control anything anymore.. i am scared of what meds they will give me next i really am.. i just need something to clear my mind. help me plse... thankyou
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thread:284959
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