Posted by jamesn on November 18, 2003, at 10:12:36
hi everyone
I have been suffering with mdma caused brain damge for three years, after heavy use of mdma for the three previous years.I would like to contact people in the same situation.
This firstly started as mild social anxiety, and mild depression. I was prescribed prozac for six months and this helped me overcome my problems.
I was hooked on the mdma buzz so I returned to it not as heavily as before but mixed with more other drugs.
Then the suprise of my life happened, after one night of mdma taking I awoke the next morning to find that I felt different in myself.
I felt generally uneasy, I felt a sense of dread and forboding, this was amplified when I walked down the road I felt paranoid and suffered panic attacks in social situations.
This overnight change I believe was a symptom of the partial destruction of my serotonin carrying neural pathways in my brain.Over the next four months I went through a period of recovery when daily I felt strange sensations inside my head several times a day, at first I didn't know what these sensations were about, but as the days went one I intuitively felt that I was slowly recovering from the brain damge.
After about four months from that day I felt that my brain had recovered back to normal. This process was not easy and I could not face normal life such as working, and limited alcohol fueled social engagements.One thing that I noticed with this brain damage was that drugs that had previously been helpful, such as prozac now had the oposite effect, it made me manically depressed, I had never suffered from mania before. So I could not take prozac, I believe this is because it was a drug focused on the neurotransmitter serotonin which I believe was the damaged area.
I was still hooked on the mdma buzz, so unfortunately I took another two pills over a couple of months.
This was enough to repeat my problems only more severely, I'm now two years and one month on from my last ever pill and I still am not back to normal.I am however expecting to recover to normal within a few months, I have found a drug that I believe has helped my brain to recover.
You can email me if you want to discuss any drug related issue, I am particuarly interested in mdma related brain damage, and if anyone else out there has suffered from similar problems to what I have described
email me at survivinge@yahoo.co.uk
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