Posted by fluffy on September 13, 2003, at 11:29:30
In reply to Thanks, friend » katia, posted by BarbaraCat on September 12, 2003, at 13:39:39
Hi Barb-cat--
You sound like you're not doing so great. (duhhh!). And that concerns me, as someone in your (online) support group. And I DO consider this a support group!! You've been a great help to me here. I don't think I would have found the patience to stick with Lithium had you not given me so much support and information. And guess what--I'm feeling so much better.
Now about the pain you're feeling. I can certainly relate to that. I, too had an abusive father (physically, emotionally). And I, too feel that it was due to bipolar rages now. It took me some time to forgive him and now I actually empathize with him. Something I thought not possible. But I have to wonder, Barb-cat--Is this something that you dwell on when you are depressed/mixed? I don't want to make light of the pain you are feeling. But for me, there are triggers--some of which I can't discern when I'm feeling them. But later when I'm feeling well, I can see that there is a subject that always comes up when I'm heading for an episode, or already in the midst of one.
Also--the alchohol use. You know what the deal is with that. You're self medicating.
Why don't you call your doctor and tell him what's going down? I don't want you to take offense to any of this or feel that I'm patronizing you. I just care about your well being. And I can sense you are in a downward spiral. Maybe feeling fully depressed or mixed. Please get help, Barb-cat.
Your friend,
Katy
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